From Nondeath
Diary
Laura Moriarty
3-25-20
On the phone
On the Beach, 12 Monkeys,
ten narratives, 28 Days,
trumps of disinformation,
revenge is living well
eating, preparing to
do what it takes,
each in our place,
memorize the news,
hate the president,
disinfect the mail
3-26-20
Drinking tea in person
earlier this month
observing now by way of
our virtual tea an argument
of towhee, starling and
chestnut backed chickadee
along with a possible
tanager sighting by
Columbine in her daily
Mission Peak climb
Birds seem nervous
or it’s me, poking myself
in the eye, cutting my finger,
and burning my thumb
on the same day
completely unready
we prepare emergency bags
but don’t emerge
4-1-20
Life in the tower
of insights, debates,
plans, and panics
implacable as
the days with
their implications
sad in the sun
foolish in the rain
helpful as it was
to acknowledge this place,
refuge, or situation
sacred (as we thought)
trying to keep from being
bereft or broken
breaking into song
we desired ourselves
as much as ever given
how old we were,
young we felt, and
how alive
4-9-20
The part to whole
rhyme between
beliefs and devices
doesn’t help us
know what to be
or say plague-wise
in this mere
softly muttering
air budded day
of schemes, plots,
supplies, numbers,
uncertain outcomes,
imagined life
4-28-20
Book of viruses,
book of the weather,
book of being late,
of getting old, of the
flight of towhees
in the trees or others
mocking, while neighbors
make birdlike sounds
with gardening machines,
imitating what was once
real but is now lost
in thought’s epiphany’s
book of pandemics,
book of the fall of Rome,
or whatever else can go down,
or of crows, ravens, jays and
other Corvids. “Covid”
reminds us of them
as they, restlessly
(in unchanged life)
call out the night
Laura Moriarty, a poet based in California, is the author of numerous collections, including Personal Volcano (2019), Verne & Lemurian Objects (2017), The Fugitive Notebook (2014), Who That Divines (2014), A Tonalist (2010), A Semblance: Selected and New Poems, 1975–2007, and Rondeaux (1990).
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